Ever want to Unknow what you know? Ever want to turn back time an not start into something? I know I sure wish I could. Severing the relationship as it is would leave me not getting what I've been told I would. Not severing it, means to continue to be used and taken advantage of...all the while we are in need of the basics. "...once he's back to...then I can talk to him about it"...then a day or so later he goes on vacation....really? Then that would be saying he has the money to do the right thing, yet chooses not to. 3 Appointments doesn't make up for 18 months of me doing all I do...and 3 appts are what I get in return? I scrimp and save from the small monthly check I get(which is on tally so I have to pay it back)just to barely feed me and my furbabies. This month is a bad one. I don't have a way to pay for their food, so I will be cooking for them. With my Fat Man's allergies, he'll be in a constant state of itchiness. Not only do I suffer, at the hands of someone with more money then he knows what to do with, but my furbabies suffer as well. It's one thing when its me, its a totally different ballgame when it's my furbabies!!!
Even writing this, I have to sensor what I say, for the wrath would put me over the edge...
To Unknow what I know....
