To Unknow what you know...

Ever want to Unknow what you know? Ever want to turn back time an not start into something? I know I sure wish I could. Severing the relationship as it is would leave me not getting what I've been told I would. Not severing it, means to continue to be used and taken advantage of...all the while we are in need of the basics. "...once he's back to...then I can talk to him about it"...then a day or so later he goes on vacation....really? Then that would be saying he has the money to do the right thing, yet chooses not to. 3 Appointments doesn't make up for 18 months of me doing all I do...and 3 appts are what I get in return? I scrimp and save from the small monthly check I get(which is on tally so I have to pay it back)just to barely feed me and my furbabies. This month is a bad one. I don't have a way to pay for their food, so I will be cooking for them. With my Fat Man's allergies, he'll be in a constant state of itchiness. Not only do I suffer, at the hands of someone with more money then he knows what to do with, but my furbabies suffer as well. It's one thing when its me, its a totally different ballgame when it's my furbabies!!!
Even writing this, I have to sensor what I say, for the wrath would put me over the edge...
To Unknow what I know....

Sometimes ya just gotta...

take some time for yourself in order to keep doing for others...this is one of those times. I was buried in friend requests for what seemed like a lifetime, now it's all comments!LOL Don't get me wrong, it's all for the good of furbabies! So it is far from time wasted. But I do feel guilty when I take a break...I know somewhere there is a furbaby suffering at the hands of man. It makes one want to do harm to the so called human's that hurt, neglect, fight, torture, etc, any critter. There are few humans I would risk my life for...but there isn't a critter on earth I wouldn't take a bullet for! People often misunderstand me and my intentions. I have a passion for animal welfare. To protect them, to help them heal, to save them from themselves. I say that because, bullies will do whatever their master wants them to. No matter how much it will hurt, maim, or kill them. All to please the human. And it seems, there is no end to what a human will demand of a pittie. There is so very little that can bring a tear to my eye. Yet a homeless pittie just rips my heart out, the ones set on fire, beaten, stabbed, shot, electrocuted, drowned, and fought all make me cry like a child. How can a person do such unthinkable things to a living, breathing, feeling creature??? As I post comments & friend requests, I see so much pain. And ALL of it can be stopped. If only more people didn't feel it was right to harm animals. If they could understand, that animal would lay down and die for them, all for a kind word, a gentle touch, or simply a meal. Maybe the animals should rule the world....